Hey Taylor.

Take comfort in the fact that some of us will read your mail & offer the advice we can, which in a way is a double edged sword. Know that the advice is well placed & read what u feel is right.

Okay I may address the last part first as in "What's this life for" for u personally I don't know but I do believe that everyone does have a specific purpose. Talk to the people you trust & they may answer that problem.

To the first part, I think that everybody goes through a stage like that where they think everyone is off there back but know that it can & will end find those places to relax so that you dont go stir crasy. Watch how you feel & try to stay away from emotional rollarcoasters as the thud back to earth can be worse than how you felt before (This is personal experiance ). Hang on to those memories that gave you emense joy & use them as fuel to keep you going. Be careful of the people who suround you & influence you try to get people around you who feed your self esteem i.e. Positive people & attempt to stay positive with them no that you are very special & in a way R.E.M. were right.

As I said be careful with what you let influence music, litrature & role models. I survived year 12 (I am an aussie in saying this) on Books by Raymond E. Feist Riftwar & serpent war saga (Look at the Tsurani culture do you wanna live in fear of the unknown just because something didn't fall your way take the 2nd chances when they come this list may/will provide some.) , Wilfred Owen (A dark poet but someone who didn't believe in throwing life away. The thing that became a double edged sword was my music I love rock so there were songs that lifted me up Creed what's this life for an example but also songs that spured me on & draged me down (Adam's Song Blink 182).

I cant actually sugest what to use as positive material maybe some other people on the list may be able to help me out on this point listen & if you can get your hands on it try. 

The main piece of advice dont isolate yourself from good friends ask questions accept advice & use what is beneficial & finally but most important be careful on what you feed your heart as from itr it is the wellspring of life & everything stems from it. ('Above all else guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life proverbs 4:23), (Matthew 12:34-35) & (luke 6:45 says it better The good person brings good things out of the good stored up in thier heart, and the evil person brings evil things from the evil that is stored in thier heart. For out of the wellspring of the heart the mouth speaks). If it is fed dark things than darkness shall come ripping you off but if it is fed things of light your shield shall stay strong & the escapes & the battles shall be won with minimal losses.

In saying this I am only 19 but have experianced a little of what you are going through I know that it can be survived & hopefully we will keep hearing from you till the close us down cause creed has moved on.

Take heart in the line "Hooray for the Child that Makes it Through" cause I know that you will. Good Luck & God Bless you on your travels. I don't know if this will help but this is the best i got have fun.

From Dave Becroft

An aussie Creed fan