i'm writing this because i feel like i have been in a situation similar to the one you are in right now. although i don't know what factor(s) have caused to to feel lonely , but i too remember feeling that way. i think it is a part of growing up...most people go through some sort of sad stage in their life. how old are you anyway? i know that there are people who are much older than me on this list and can give better advice than me, but i know it'll always help to know that someone read your mail =). since i don't know exactly what you are going through right now i don't really know what to say. what help me through my "sad time in life" was my music. i loved listening to it and that was what helped me a lot. i felt like i could relate to a lot of the songs i heard. creed helped me a lot and so did linkin park. listening to music was the one thing that i was able to do to help me relax. sitting in my room and playing the music really loud and not caring what my parents said about it being too loud...i became relaxed and learned that "this too shall pass". with time, things will get better. a lot of things can get better with time. i know i can't wait until i turn 18 and head off to college. at that point too, i was also thinking that there was nothing i could do to improve myself and it was hard for my parents (who were one of the main sources of my frustration) to accept the way i was. and when i felt that the people i thought would always be there for me were not there...that i think was the saddest part of my life. but i remained strong and that's what helped a lot too. so just stay strong and remember that it's not going to be like this forever. i think it's good to let out your anger, or speak your mind. right now i'm doing fine and all the bad in my life is now in the past =). i don't know if this email helped any, but i hope did -- talk to you later have fun take care byebye

-laura-

  Taylour l manly <creedangelgrl@JUNO.COM> wrote:

hey what's up with all the multilingual stuff? anyway, guys that was the
original question. i need to vent to. i feel like i can't do anything
right, but i know that it's mostly my fault, and I'm trying to improve i
really am, and I'm just not doing it right. halfway according to my
mom(who knows where each dust partial lays in our house) but also
whenever I'm alone in the car with one of them they talk about the other,
and it really scares me cus i can put two and two together. it's so
confusing and mom says that I'm growing up but she still try to control
what music i listen to,(Likin Park/ LP) and a lot of other stuff like
what i write and what not, i don't know what to do! when I'm 18, I'm
splitting! and my dad thinks that I'm a coward just because i left a
place where i was hated and put down and talked about and a lot of other
stuff to go to metro north where I'm loved and accepted and i grow and
learn feel safe and comforted. he says that real leaders don't run but i
fought for 7 1/2 years and everyone needs a rest. i am going through so
much right now and i feel so incredibly alone and i just can't take it. i
don't know anymore, i just don't know if i can take this much longer
without giving in to hysteria, or worse... i can't even let my shields
down in my own house, only metro, and i can only go there on Wednesdays,
please, any advice. i'm so close to the edge of insanity...
X.C.F.

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