does anyone know how it is to love someone but know that they have no chance at all to be able to go out with them?¿
It sucks......most of you probably dont care about how i feel and it dont really matter to me if u care or not i am just gonna to type this and send it so it will make me feel alittle bit better because i will be able to tell how i feel......

There is this really Beautiful girl at my school i mean she is Hot.
When i first saw her i didnt think much of her until it keep just watchin her and stuff then i just sorta fell inlove i guess.
She is one of these popular people but she is really nice....and there arent many popular people like that at my school......
I have never really talked to her becuase i have been to scared......and embarassed i guess becuase i am kinda scared of what she might think of me....
but i mean she is one of these people that can have almost anyone they want....
I aint one of these popular people (known as PREPS) i mean almost everyone in my grade knows me and stuff i just aint one of these people thats goes out with alot of people all the time.......
After a while i started thinkin "why do i really like her?, is it just because of her looks or something"
i didnt wanna like someone for JUST their looks and thats that i mean it is just how i am.......
I didnt really know her alot. not enough to say she is a friend or anything.....
but i mean for some reason i like her and i aint sure as to why i do i feel like it is something other then just her looks i mean all of her friends tell me how Sweet and kinda and nice she is and i guess thats what makes me like her as much as i do.....
I have liked her for about 2 months now and it is old in a way......
I mean i have liked her and i have admired her from across the cafeteria everyday i just sit there and stare at her i just watch her all the time she is so beautiful.......
I am soooo..... scared to asked her mainly becuase of the answer that i am so sure that i will get from her which will either be "Well i dont know you that much" or just a plain all out regular "No!!"
I like her so much she has the most beautiful smile she has long straight brown hair that is about shoulder length she has Brown eyes she is just PERFECT through my eyes........
i am scared that i will make a total ass outta  myself if i ask her out....She will defiantly say No......outta all the boys at our school and in the higher grades she can have almost everyone and there are sooo many boys that are so much better then me that i know she would rather have.......
the school year is almost over in about 2 weeks and i dont wanna have this feeling about her all through te summer...........
I wanna ask her out so bad i guess i would call it something of a Love for her and i am just stupid i gave up a chance to dance with ehr at a party like 3 weeks ago because i was embarrased to i have never danced in my intire life and i am just stupid i sit in school and at home and just stare at her pictures that i have of her.........i wonder how it would be if i asked her out what if she said No or Yes i just sit and stare at them and think.....
(there is more to this whole damn story but i dont feel like writtin it all out now i might send the rest latter.......but thanks for taking the time in reading this and i just needed to telll someone how i feel about this)

Sincerly, Matt.......................